Why do I feel like I'm bleeding out, When all I did was open my mouth? Why do I feel like I'm wasting away, When the pain feels more real day after day? All too well, my feet know the texture of the floor, And all too well, my stomach knows the sinking come from … Continue reading The Gods Won’t Save You
Author: Wolfgang Jakubowski
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Too Afraid to Say
So many words I lose in the day, Fumbling with not enough nerve to say Anything that means anything at all, Because I’m so high up that I’m afraid to fall. But I can’t keep all of these things inside, Pouring over and pulling my stomach like goddamn a riptide. Sometimes when I’m alone, I … Continue reading Too Afraid to Say
Mother
I know you wish that we could come together, Be a family, love each other like mothers and brothers should. I know you wish that Al and I would start to get along, I know you've come so far and that you've lived so long, And now it feels like it's all gone wrong. I … Continue reading Mother
Sick
I’m stumbling through a hallway. I’m not drunk. I wish I were, but I can’t put the drink to my lips. A brother is too far gone down that path, and even before it comes, I see that pathetic end. I’m not fucked out of my mind on drugs. Half the faces around me show … Continue reading Sick
Wings
The white light pulled me in from the dark. It’s a flat surface, humming so low but burning so warm and bright. I do not know what dance is, but I think it’s this, gliding along the surface of happiness, tapping my feet upon brimming satisfaction. I feel love, even if from a cold and … Continue reading Wings
Where you stood
There you stood in the street, Smokestacks high, trash heaps blazing, Sun shining from the East, And humming off the sidewalk and buildings. You knew where you were, But boy, you never learned, did you? Yes, you saw that we were all kings, But did you see the kingdoms were lies? You saw the chance … Continue reading Where you stood
Whenever-He-Feels-Like-It-ly
This blog is officially adopting the policy of its name. As I am now starting a new novel which will demand most of my attention in writing, my posts on this blog will diminish considerably. I've written and even had books published before, and I know that the way in which they are written demands … Continue reading Whenever-He-Feels-Like-It-ly
Scream
I’m trying to scream, But it doesn’t seem, To matter how much pain, It feels silent just the same. It’s not that it falls on deaf ears, But that it doesn’t sound like the tears. I’m trying to scream, Trying to speak, And the words come out, Soul-shattering loud, But who cares what you hear, … Continue reading Scream
Brief Disruption
Due to a surplus of non-writing related work and a shortage of time, for the next three days or so, I will most likely not be able to post anything. I'm making this post mostly because I've noticed I'm having slightly more traffic than usual. To the one person who has started following me: first … Continue reading Brief Disruption
I Know
I know, I know how you feel. I know that you think, Pain is all that’s real. Oh, I know. And I know, That you really believe, That hope isn’t free, And I might agree. Believe me, I know. I know, You don’t trust anyone anymore, I know how much the pain of the past … Continue reading I Know
